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Christine M. Miller-Ramey: Posted on Saturday, May 26, 2012 9:15 AM
Words can be powerful. So powerful, that it can rip your soul right from your chest especially if you are the one taking the beating. With that being said, I can remember as child a neighbor of mine who taught me that “Sticks and stones may break my back, but names will never hurtme.” I’ve thought a lot about that statement over the years, and for somereason this statement doesn’t hold its truth, or does it? I remember those children who were teasing me and how the words hurt. They ripped right through me like a dagger in the heart. It was plain awful. I honestly don’t know how many times I’ve seen myself in this same position in life. Odd isn’t it? Odd, because over the years I’ve found myself being taunted by others, and yes, I’ve been incredibly hurt in more ways than one. The trials have been many. The words have been thick. I will never forget this particular day, as I was standing out in the middle of our street, and the kids from the neighborhood were teasing me. I can still see the tears that poured down my cheek. I ran tomy neighbor because it was her kids that had been doing the teasing. (if Iremember right) Anyways, when I got to her house (as my mother was still atwork), I sat down with her and explained what had happened. It was then that she explained that statement and later she went to explain what happen to my mother. I’ll never forget that next day, when I was out on Lipsy Street playing and the kids started up again. I fought the tears and then, without fail, I blurted that line to them. Oh how I felt incredibly powerful against those kids who taunted me and teased me. But in the end I had won that battle. They never bothered me again. Of course, I don’t know if that was because their mother had gotten onto them or not but nevertheless the victory was mine. Today, as an adult, it is often harder to fight those battles. I’m not sure if that is because the battles or problems are too much of an adult problem or the simple lack of faith. I had not always had the lack of faith I did as a child. That faith to stand against the other opponent in the center of the ring, and I’m not quite sure what went wrong. Or why I can’t. But still, I’ve had to learn to have a deeper kind of faith. One that goes beyond the playground, and one that goes into the faith of Christ. I’ve had to learn to give it all to Him—not just apart of me—but all of me! That is the key component of getting beyond the hurt.The key to getting beyond the disgrace and humility that has hurt us so deeply. We must. . .trust God in everything we go through. We have to give Him our every burden and our every needs. If we don’t it is impossible to have a truerelationship with Christ. Are you giving you’re all? “Praise be to the Lord, to God our Savior, who daily bears our burdens.” Psalm68:19 NIV
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Christine M. Miller-Ramey: Posted on Saturday, May 19, 2012 5:15 PM
If you have followed me on my blog for a while, you would know how hard it has been for me to write this novel along the way. But the announcement is this—Chapter Two is Completed! It’s a happy dance momentfor me. It is a huge progress for me. I completed it at 5,031 words. I wanted to share with you my favorite part of thechapter. It’s a discussion between my MC Sara Jenkins and the heroine Sam. Take a look at their conversation. Remember, I love comments and feedback. Thanks. The Roads Between Us © Christine M. Miller-Ramey 2012 It didn’t take long before Sam approached her and distracted her silence. He sat down beside her with a pretzel and coke. He stopped for a moment to pray and Sara noticed how intent his prayer seemed to be. She couldn’t wait to ask some questions. Finally, Sam had finished praying and Sara approached him quickly. “Sam, why do you pray?” The question puzzled him. “I pray for Godto help me through the day. You know to give methe strength I need when I need it. It is so comforting for me to know that God will take careof me. You know He cares for all of His creatures great or small. He even caresfor the sparrow.The Bible tells us that, and I love knowing that no matter what I’m going through that He will be there. Don’t you Sara?” He asked taking a bite out of the pretzel.Picking up the napkin next to him, he wiped his mouth. “Why do you ask, Sara?” “I admire you for wanting to pray Sam. I think that is great that you find comfort in that. It’s just. . that. . .well. . .since things happened I don’t feel like praying anymore. I’ve lost that faith if you will. I guess with everything going on I’ve forgotten what God can do.I’ve forgotten that He is the Lord of my life. I should probably learn to trust Him again but can’t Sam.Is that wrong of me?” I hope that in some way the reading speaks to your heart in some form as it has mine as I’ve been writing it. God has spoken to me and has given me a message to write about. A message about healing and faith within each of us that are hurting.Thank you for stopping by and for taking the time to read a portion of my book along the way.
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Christine M. Miller-Ramey: Posted on Wednesday, May 16, 2012 8:36 PM
Photo Borrowed From: God is always there, is a comment I’ve often heard over and over again from people. I’ve believed that for years and still do. But, in times of trials and circumstances I do understand that there is often a sense of disbelief. Maybe it is because the faith I had isn’t strong or maybe because I’ve forgotten how to believe. Whatever the reason, I have to believe that God is always there for me. In every moment and in every situation I experience in life. It’s funny that I’ve been thinking a lot about this during the week because of the past holiday (Mother’s Day). I have thought about this holiday a lot because many do not know that I am a mother. Not in the way that many moms are today because I lost my child through a stillborn birth. Every year and every holiday is just as hard as the year I lost my son. It’s crazy I know and many people often tell me that after all of this time I should be able to move on with my life. I should be just fine. But the truth—I’m not always fine. In fact, in most cases, it is very hard to watch other mothers who treasure their children and I envy them. I watch with jealousy as they hold their newborn or hold their child in their arms so carefully and lovingly. How do I continue in this way, and how do I continue to have faith in God after a loss as this? Some days, depression hits hard and I find myself lying on my bed in tears as I relive every moment over and over again. But the truth, I know beyond a shadow of doubt that God IS right there beside me holding my hand and walking with me through each day. It is because of His tender heart, and loving hands that I can raise my head and smile. I’ve learned through my grief and through my pain how to see His hand in my life. I can’t tell you why or how—just that He is there. Life hits us with tough things sometimes. When those things happen no matter how good or bad those incidents may be we have to learn to trust in the Father’s almighty hand. For years, I tried to blame others for things that happen but I soon learned that God didn’t make this happen to me. He didn’t want me to be a person who hated Him either, instead and incredibly, He showed me the reasons much later in life. God never does anything out of spite. He only does things because He loves us that much and wants to guard us in every way possible. Even though at times our life will seem as though the mighty storm has come through us, and sideswiped us silly. Nevertheless, when it does, we have to know and understand that His hand is always there. He is always waiting on us to call His name. Oddly enough, I see those years of torment as an encouragement now. I can now see that no matter how I felt about the situation at that time that He loved me through it all. He never left my side. I have the comfort to know that one day I will be reunited with my son—Denton James Dahl again. ". . .I will never leave you nor forsake you." Joshua 1:5 NIV
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